Day Zero Challenge - 101 Things in 1001 Days

Recently I ran across these list people were making where they aimed to complete 101 things in 1001 days. After some research I landed on the Day Zero site and was totally inspired to make my own list.

At first this seemed like it would be easy, because I always have so many ideas floating around in my thoughts and various notes throughout my planner. Wrong! It took me a few days, some time looking at list others have made, and conversations with people in my life, especially my sister.

Once my list was done, I chose a start date, found my end date, purchased a journal to document as I go through my list and placed the list inside. Here are some photos of the list I will be working on for the next 1001 days.

When I look back over my list, the item that always makes me smile the most is, finish a coloring book. This was not my idea, but one I ran across when I was trying to fill up my list. My plan is to find a child's coloring book that I can use when spending time with my younger grandchildren. 

If you made a list like this, what would you add for fun?

Who Am I AND How Did I Get Here?

The following statements were written two years ago, during a very dark time in my life.

I'm angry all the time.

I can't speak without being corrected.
I struggle to sit in the same room with anyone.
I feel lonely in a house full of people.
I am lost and unsure.
I am insecure about everything.
I second guess myself all day, everyday.

I am a wife. (unhappy and unconnected)

I am a mother. (unable to connect with my teens)

I am a grandmother. (unable to be close to them)

I am not someone I would not want to spend time with.

Today, there are times I still feel lost and unsure how to recover.  I know who I am but sometimes struggle to live life in a manner that lets people see me on the inside.  I speak, but scream on the inside, because no-one hears what I'm trying to say. Even as I type these words none of them are the ones I had planned to say.

Have you ever sat down to write a letter and felt as if someone hit the delete button on your brain?  You are left with nothing but fog where all the words were only moments ago.  This is my world most of the time. How am I ever going to make this work if I am unable to make my point?

Maybe, just maybe, that is the point of this blog, to recover all the things I know are there but lost in the fog. Where did I go and why did I allow myself to disappear?  

Home Again Patchwork, is about my continuing journey to fall in love again with all the wonderful things about myself and in my life.

Join me on my journey to rediscover and recover all the wisdom we gain over time.  Let's clear the fog once and for all and get back to being someone we call friend.

I will strive daily to release anger and find my happy again.

I will aim to speak in a way that others understand.

I will make a point of spending time in the presence of others.

I will find comfort within myself.

I will keep moving till I find the answers.

I will work at trusting my instincts.

I will leave behind self-doubt and move forward.

I am a wife, to a man who has always provided for our family.

I am a mother to five adult children. (36, 34, 25, 18, 18)

I am Granny to 5 extraordinary grandchildren. (15, 13, 10, 3, 2)

I am comfortable and confident in who I am as a person.

How are you feeling about your life at the moment?

 Do you need to find love and joy at home again?

If so, join me in putting the pieces back together just like you would a patchwork quilt.